pain.

broken.

into pieces.

need cure..

wait for something that wont appear.

pathetic.

that my life.

just wait and wait.

wait

wait

wait

wait

wait...

is this worth??

who know..

whoa~

class trip really damn syok.

fees damn syok.

activities damn syok.

animals more syok..

u met before some SHARKS that their mouth is that BIGGGGGGG.

i'm been bite till damn pain!!

u miss that.i'm glad that u not one of the victim.

so be clever a bit next time.

be the SHARK.not the FOOD.=D

AND..

NO MORE ALCOHOLIC DRINK!!!

i'm drunk.thats what i know.

and what i did.i dont know.==

regret.

so regret.

damn regret..

sorry if cause any trouble.i dint mean it.

paiseh.xP

but still something is true.

is happening.

i know it.=D

exam is nearly end.so what next? O.O

if i wont be able to get a place at ATC.

where should i be?

maybe i will selling chao-kui-teow somewhere.XD

feel like my future in gloom and fade.

where's the brightness of my future?

my college life.how will it be?

i can be a better man if u give me a chance.

be with you is my greatest desire.

many people said that one day 24hours is not enough for them.

but if u can lend me your's 24hours.

i can make it a memorable day ever for you. :)

before.present.future.

although everything will start changing now.

but the place i wait for you is always here.

u never know.

I'm sick..

I'm having hypnophobia.@@

I can't sleep!!!!

I'm watching the clock and thinking when sun will rise.

is everyday.==

when i sleep i dont know is what time.

but most early is 2am.==

gosh~~

not scare about exam.

not thinking anything.

just lying on bed and waiting my eye to close.

counting sheep.

drink hot milk.

take a bath.......

but is NOT WORK FOR ME!!!

maybe i can try dont sleep one whole day.

then next day sleep whole day.

is this okay..==

what a abnormal person you are.

Graduation day.

means i'm graduating today.

depressed.sadness filled my heart.

miss the 5P1 tables that i always sleep.

miss everyone that always crapping there.

miss that noisiness that interrupt teachers' lesson.

miss that ponteng feel.is so woohoo~ xD

miss the day always stalking you. shhh..xP

GOSH!!!

why i'm so sentimental here.?

no matter how far apart from each other.

no matter how fast time pass through.

no matter how many new peoples that i meet.

is wont have such a gang that can replace 5P1.=)

we will meet again.

updating...

OMG!!!

why everyone asking me don't go school arh..

what kind of student nowadays..

Haih.

although me also finding reason don't go la.

thanks guys. xD

why people just like saying that

'i will try better this time'.

'i want get good result.but i don't want study.'

'okay.let bring some notes during exam.no one will know.'

==.

so that where the 'good result' come from.

halo.

don't u feel guilty although u score better than anyone.

without studying.while others studying until dying there.

WTF la!!

u can keep on cheating yourself like that.

but how long u think u can do this trick.

how long u think u can survive like this.

depends how lucky are you right.

so let see about this!!

without paying any effort.

without sacrifice your sleep time.

so what u think u cant get.

OOh.i know.A ZERO maybe.

SPM coming..zzz

HoN coming too.

L4D 2 also coming.

Starcraft 2.

COD 5.

why must all coming soon at the same time.==

i'm making a hard decision here.

i need sacrifice my gaming time for study.

screw JPN!!!screw government!!!

JENNIFER'S BODY!!!

SEXY MEGAN FOX NEW MOVIE!!!

so who interested??

hahas.

she so HOT..

why my life in like that?

why i cant be that person?

why am i here?

is it so important that i'm here?

so curious about other people life.

so many question i wanna ask about my life.

who am i?

confused.

lost.

who can i still believe?

maybe is you.

maybe is just another delusion again.

?????

???

??

?

well.zero plan for my holiday.

feel so lifeless.

another delusion.

don't screw my life.

just little more..

i sure can handle it.

just few minutes...

please.

hola~~!!!!



i'm extremely bored. :(
so i decided to come and crash bob's blog~!

cus he's not replying me in msn.






STUPID BOB.

hee.


we're gonna graduate soon. :(
i shall save money so that i can buy bob his bibi and bubu.



you dunno what's that?





you're so outdated.






they're the cutie turtles that i'm buying bob as his birthday pressie~
hoho i know i know.
i'm brilliant~
turtles dont die so easily.
so bob will remember me when he saw them~
hoho.




i'm brilliant. *wink.



ciao~~~




oh!
i'm ongwenbin.
hi~
:D

i try to enter your world.

found a door.

but no matter how hard i break through it.

what is behind the door just another endless door.

searching the key for your heart.

reveal the secret that you don't let other know.

understand your feeling.

so that no more teardrops from you.

what a relief..
finally end.
but still the same you.
why must be you.
how can you let me fall from my dreams.





i'm feeling good when i look at you.
say no words.
just look at you.
its satisfy me.
for my dream.
dream forever..

okay.
stop saying me EMO jo.zzz
this how i'm blogging.

maybe is like a journal for you all.but not me.

i just write every sad depressed pathetic thing in my life here.

so that i can forget it.not need think bout it.

no tears.no sadness.no broken heart.

without looking back.searching another new day.

dont want waste my time and emo there.

thats what blog for right.

just keep those joyful and happiness moment in mind.
always put a smile in face.

that enough for me.

xP

control my life please.
i really dont know how to go on my life.
same journey.
i really hope that i'm just a puppet.
someone can make decision for me.
someone can do things that i never dare.
just make my life better.
take whatever you want.
i dont even care.

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wtf?!!

why i not dare say a word??!!!

miss another chance again...

Sigh*

please dont be so coward next time.

*heart break.i never know it will be so pain.
i'm just here to fill up that empty place..Sigh*

stop everything.
just wasting your time.
dont bullshit in front of me.
that no more second chance.
end of story..



earth still turning.
sun still shining.
people still busying.
you still not understand me.
i'm still falling.
nothing change.
i want escape from here.
i dont want my life.
disaster.tragedy.pathetic.









start thinking about you.
so beautiful.

we just live in a circle..
no matter how we escape.
how we run..
we still back to where we start.
no matter where we go.
no matter how far we have been.
we still will meet again.

someone said that.
after 1000000++ years.
at the same place.same time.
same thing will happen again.
same people u will meet again.
same journey u will walk again.
everything will repeat and repeat..

always pray for good luck.
always think that god will help us.
always think that we should be a good man.
but did u know that.
all successful men most of them are bad.
they success because they selfishness.
they famous because they covet to fame and fortune.
they always be no.1 because they cruel enough to their enemy.
they fake in front of everyone.
wearing a mask that with a smile that everyone admire.
but no doubt.
they are success in their life.
they get what they want.
smart to be bad.
i will always remember this.

*i think i'm suffering paronoid. x.X

so lai had his flight just now.
and he gave me a call.
i duno what to say.
coz u are my 1st migrated friend..
just said goodbye.
after hang up the phone.
feel like there is manything i wanna say to you.

like i said.
if we met earlier.
maybe we will become GAY.xD
you being such a good friend of mine.
you make my secondary school life full of joy and laugh again. =D

i'm thinking.
2ml u wont be sitting bside me anymorre.
wont be there joking fooling around with us anymore.
wont hear ur daibee voice anymore.
wont see u and chua this pair together anymore.
feel so bad...

we will meet each other again in five years time rite.
that what our brotha deal.hahas
all the best..
i definitely gonna miss you..
chua and ong sure crying tomorrow.
zzz.

pathetic life.

nothing will get worse than this.

nothing worth for me to be there anymore..

sigh*

finding inspiration for my life again.

but what left for me is like so difficult and dark.

dont dare take another step.

scare make mistake again or i'm just a coward?

please tell me what to do.

change me please.

define me please.

-

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daydreaming in class everyday.

wanna start my study but really dont have that mood.

books just make me feel sleepy.

tuition just make me feel annoying.

but i wanna start my high school life.

sigh~

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i just know making promise again and again.

but i'm not doing anything for it.
i'm so desperate for result.

but still i'm not doing anything for it also.
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hope you will know.

hope you will understand.

hope you will realise.

so please.

give me some hope. =)

Unsatisfied ☻

what i having today seem like not enough to satisfied me..

i know that..when time flies.what we need will be more and more..

but you know that you need pay alots and lots to earn what you want.

is wont be a easy way..but a long journey that make you tired and tired..

until you give up one day..that just failure waiting in front of you..

and you wont dare to take another step forward..

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i know it seem like an old man talking here..

but this is the fact..

this how the environment that force us to grow up even you dont want to..

time wont slow down for anyone.

and you just watching others keep walking forward and leave you behind.

no one will sympathies your pathetic life.

at the end..you just a loser for them.

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dear mum.

although i'm not showing my hardworking in front of you.

but i really did my best in everything..

because i know i'm the only son that can let your elder life better.

when i studying until very tired.

i think you and dad.

dont know why..i will refresh myself..and keep on study..

just for you and dad.

i will proof everything i said..

love you ♥

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i want MONEY, FAME, WOMAN, FERRARI, and EVERYTHING..

even now i'm just 16+ years old..

i start to think all of it..

although i'm just no one else for now.

but i will be someone in the future..=D

Junction..

I really duno what i'm gonna do..

am i taking the wrong way..

should i take a U-turn back right now.

or else i'm just let it be..

just wan treat myself better.

but need sacrifice someone feeling?!

am i right or wrong.

confused*

praying that really will come true..

everything will go on well.

just wan let u noe.

=D

YOU you you AND you...

you are so stupid.

dint realize that something already change..

STUPID!!!!

fed up about you.

just another person who blind.

cant u feel it?!

Oh ya..

almost forget..

u always so cruel to me..

*Sigh*

Dont show that BLUR look to me anymore.

u know what in my mind..

dont pretend like so innocent..

miss u so much~~~

hope u will know..=D

woo hoo~~

dont get too far..is just the sound effect after sims make love..xD
this few days addicted to sims 3..
quite a good improve by EA..
dont say i'm a nerd..
just enjoying playing with life..
like a GOD!!!
woo hoo~


Anyways..
u said i'm a coward..
so i'm just prove i'm not..
but dont regret..
dont scare until run away..
=D

Heaven =D

is been a while i stop blogging
because my comp spoiled for almost a month..
OMG.i duno how can i tahan that 4weeks.==

okay..
tats all..
i'm really dont feel like blogging now..
dont have that mood..

bye..=D
May heaven where you are..

yay, finally bob updated. ahaha.

*clapssss*

so, i'm running out of things to write. think i'd better stop. :)

ice

STAR TREK!!!
the best galaxy movie that i ever watched.
those graphic effect.. those shooting scene.. those spaceships and planet..
WALAO..
is the best outer space movie man!!
u should go watch..if not u will regret about it.
cant wait for episode 2 man!!

teachers' day..

keep asking people update..==
feel so boring..

okay.
i went caogei today.
tats how we celebrate..
don't create any problem for teacher in school
so just hang out..
but happened something that impossible to happen in cafe..
power failure man!!!
what THE HELL!!
so we just wait until the power restore.and GUESS what..
we can play for FREE for 2hrs after that!!! $$$$$
hahas

and then..
i went SP to met junpoey they all..
but is soOOOOOO boring..
just wan spent my time there rather than stay at home.....

okay.tat all...

HAPPY TEACHERs' DAY!!! =D
*thanks for the knowledge & everything*

P.S.:sorry ongwenbin.. but really too boring stay at home.=D
who ask u don't want date with me woh.==

siowchanwai, update.

if not i'll start spamming your blog. ahaha.

apple.

ahahaha. guess who i am. *big grin*
i'm not siowchanwai. (omg, calling his real name is so weird.)
i'm not shiny. (a.k.a shayne)
i'm not siow pear.
i'm not BOB!



guess la. :)

ahem. i got a whole load of weird, funny faces, lame bob pictures with me. so, show you a little tiny bit of them la. ever seen NOT-SLEEPING-SIOWCHANWAI?



close-my-eyes-siowchanwai?



laugh out loud!!! okay. he's gonna kill me. gotta run. oh and before i run. let me introduce myself, i'm ong apple. nice to meet you!!

ciao.

Blueeeee...

today sky so blue..although just a moment.

my feeling also so BLUEEEE..
everything like so blue..

..........

BIG mistake

so fool!so dumb!so stupid!!
i really din mean it.
can i say like that.
i dun know how to be with you..
maybe I'm panic.nervous.coward. just dunno..
Sorry. sorry. and more sorry..
but i know you more after this misunderstood.
wont make u mad next time.
thank to that mistake i made.. :)
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actually. you know what..
i can don't care what u talking there..
what u whispering there..
but i think i cant..
no matter how far i go..
i still try to eavesdropping about what u all toking.
i know its been a bad day for us..
but please don't show your moody look to me can mah..
AND i din ignore u..tats how I'm really am when in bad mood.
i don't think i need apologize for this.
so u still want continue this meaningless cold war or what..

blink blink.

my eye start to blink blink this few days..

i cant stop staring at you..
i cant move my sight from you..
i cant stop finding you everywhere..
i cant speak a words when i see you...
i hope you can remember who i am..
hope got a 'PAUSE' button there..
so that can hold that moment forever~~~

Reboot button.

can find a REBOOT button in my life..?

16 years.832weeks.5840days.140160 hours.8409600 mins.504576000 secs....

WALAO..i din even know i can survive until now.
the most worst is i cant even remember how i spent this 16years..

daydreaming there or what..

just wondering..

Is it really nothing that memorable for me..

let me meditate a while.......

YUP..there is nothing left for me..

i cant think remember any of it..

meaningless for me everyday..

here today gone tomorrow..
Haih..pathetic life..
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really need some inspiration for my life..
i'm trying very hard ad..
but nothing much..
failure AND failure make me feel so down..
i think i just know how to make things worse..
dont feel proud of it at all..
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really hope that can start everything again..
Instead of regret..i know i shouldnt be in that way..
really want get out from this mind box..
but who knows..
maybe start everything again.
i will repeat the same mistake that i made..
reset OR continue..
so HEADACHE..
@.@

primary gathering.

zZz.
woke up late.
appear at sp late..==
but at least i'm there lo..
feel been tipu there again..
coz just 6 person and somemore included me..==
WALAO..what a gathering.
mostly from CHS de tim..
maybe something about that host (Holiday) gua..
such a weird name rite.
hahas xD

so we just go sing K.and movie lor.
and took pic with those weird machine..
still duno why girls lyk tis kind of thing.
feel my hp so useless.
so hard only scan it and post it..==

Whatever...

FOR SOMEONE...
whatever i did.
i hope u can appreciate it..
i hope u will be happy..
i just want stay beside you for another second...
i hope can be someone for u..
so pathetic..
u never know..

FOR ANOTHER SOMEONE...
WHATEVER la...
throw everything away.
dun wish to see someone like tat.
maybe i'm jealous of tat ppl..
but really too KANASAI ad!!!
ask tat ppl go bang 10000+++ timesss wall la!!!!
acting like.
when need A then throw B aside..
WTH!!!
think tat ppl damn yeng issit!!!

FOR ANOTHER ANOTHER SOMEONE...
i still want care about you.
but i not dare to go near you..
maybe i'm just a coward for you.
but i not dare to trust you anymore..
sorry..

Waterfish Camp.

finally back from that inti camp.
A.K.A waterfish camp.hahax
i think u all know what that means rite.
going with those people. THOSE PEOPLE!!!!
*SIgh. lazy to describe them one by one.==
Anyways.
still have some fun with my gang.hahax
try my best to participate ad.
and met some new kaki there.
WTH!! duno campus also got CC wan.xD
so tat how we spent our free time while people sleeping there.xD
walk out from there i'm feel lyk zombie ad..==

our lengzai & daibee faci MinHon :)
luckily we have this unmature and chineseable faci.
he make us enjoy this camp very well.
coz he bring us lepak outside tat campus at midnite.hahax
AND the most important is.
he knows what to CAOGEI..xD
thx for tis few days. DAILOU.

*farewell party with my SPIRIT members.
when we shout til sore throat.
he made some honey drink for us.
among all facis.only he did that.
so touching u noe. xD

a normal wishing card for every member by our faci.
Walao.damn touching u know. T.T
he give us some feedback about this few days.
and is so nice to met you oso.
make this waterfish camp more fun.
THX so much!!

Untitled.

Tired.
Exhausted..
Exam gonna start.
and why am i still here..
almost 5am.
and i hvnt sleep..
Stressful..

No mood to continue my assignment.
feel so bad.
sorry guys.
fed up bout myself.
BUT.
i learn something.
i'm not a GOOD planner.
just another disappointed on me..

Been throw aside again.
been hated by someone.
feel so bad..
just a BAD joke.
just want have your attention.
but.
i mess up everything.
dunno will become this ending de.
sorry.
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Let me know more about you can mah.
your past and evrything.
trust me once and last..
no reason.
no escape.
no turning back.
just me and you..

Happy CNY. (:

yup. Happy CNY..
finally back from hometown..not need feed any mosquito anymore...==
not really have new year mood. but still get lots of angpau.xD
i think tats new year suppose to be..
gambling din win much.just enough for my one meal at Ipoh chickenrice.
haih.. feel so boring...
i think should go to gym soon..
found that my body is nearly no muscle..xD
keep feeding myself with those junk food.
BEH tahan ad!!! eat sleep play. feel myself like pig ad.
this year cant visit friends house. my uncle passed away last month...
sory.. AhOng..
ANyways..
school gonna start soon.
and need continue my assignment again..
really no mood to do it...
sorry GUYS.. but i try my best finish it. (:

BINGO!!!

3rd day of school.start to feel sleepy in class.==
but teacher still lyk BLAH BLAH BLAH in front of us.
why they never know how suffer to our hearing.
so i finally fed up and take a nap. zZZz
and we played BINGO. HAHAs
then school end like this.
what a another day.

Another first day.

School reopen again.
first day. new school life.
means SPM is coming this year.
dont feel like in study mood. not nervous at all.
dono why you all so gan jiong bout it.
whole day listen teachers BLAH BLAH BLAH....
is this what really school life.

Kinda busy at library.
try to arrange everythg for them.
althugh not my responsibility.
no one want do it.
that why i put my leg inside.
hate mafan.
but seem like they duno how to appreciate.
maybe just me making myself busy only.
so next time dont care ad.
dont care....

Anyways.
whole locker is my SPBT bookss.xD
no choice.I dont want bring all text books home.
AND that the locker use for. Hahas